"Pushed to the Edge"

***Warning. May Trigger those who are or who ever have been suicidal. Not for those who are.***

"Pushed to the Edge"

Pushed to the edge
Looking out at the abyss
I am temped to jump
Just to get away from all of this.

Because there's no end to the tyranny
And no end to the pain
caused by the oppressors
and by the insane

They push me to the edge
With how much they need
And with taking all from me
Out of unnecessary greed.

Sex, alone time, and every waking hour,
They take.
And They yell at me
If personal time, I try to make.

I want and need a friend
And I want a partner, too,
To show me support
For what I am going through.

Because I need
To get away from all of this
But, I don't have that, right now,
To give me support, nor to help me have bliss.

So, my thoughts turn back
To the grey, cloudy abyss-
To jumping off the edge of life
So to end all of this.

Why is there a reason to live?
Please tell, me, honestly,
Because I am so tired
And holding on, barely.

Author: April Morone (aka on FB 'Annika Doe')
Date, written: Dec. 28th, 2013

"You are Wonderful"

"You are Wonderful" (Revised)

You hang your head and cry
and softly say that you want to die.
I sit down and hold you
without questioning why.

You say you don't mean anything-
that nobody knows you're there.
But, hon, I think you do,
and of you, I am aware.

You say none understand
of what you're going through,
nor of your feelings,
But, I've felt this way, too.

You do matter.
And you're not alone in how you feel.
These words, I don't say, lightly-
These words, I say for real.

And, all of this, I tell to you
in hopes you understand,
as I gently rock you
and hold onto your hand.

And as I silently plead,
"Please don't go..."

Author: April Morone
Date, written: Nov. 23rd, 2013

My reason for writing this, I'd been inspired by those who'd been suicidal (and by some who currently are suicidal whose posts I saw on other website including a post by a young girl holding up a sign that just said, "I just want to die." I know how that feels as I go through that, too, quite often. So, I wrote this poem to let them know that someone out there does understand and does care about them.  And I wrote this poem to show them how else I would support/comfort them through this if I could do so for them in person-without judgement nor questions of why. Hopefully that information can comfort those who are suicidal.

**If you or someone you know is suicidal, please don't hesitate to reach out for help (to family, to friends, to strangers, to a suicide prevention hotline, or to anyone). 1-800-SUICIDE.